bad, mad, sad

[jaeclectic]

Just a couple of days ago I was noting that my wild mood swings had been somewhat moderated, and was theorizing that increased exercise was doing my psyche good, even if no impact on my physical being is yet evident.

Couldn't prove it by today, though.

Yesterday, had a really long & stress-filled day at work. We were launching some taxonomy changes on the Java forums, and of course got last-minute changes from people who have had months (literally! months!) to review the stuff, and then we got a late start due to some miscommunication with the engineering team, and then there turned out to be caching problems that slowed everything down, not to mention causing panic... bla bla bla.

So although it all ended well, I was pretty well exhausted by the combination of starting early, ending late, driving to & from Menlo Park, and various strong emotions in between.

Therefore hoped for a more calm and quiet day today.

Instead, I had a series of contentious meetings. Basically hit some kind of mental/emotional wall, after which I failed to express myself well (see tiredness above) and then got frustrated and lost my temper (see tiredness above) and randomly embarrassed myself by repeatedly addressing The Guy as "my dear" (not sure if that was tiredness or just generalized idiocy).

After which I got weepy. Which is kind of where I am right now.