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jaeclecticThings are OK but not great. It would be nice if things were great, don't you think?
Last night I slept badly (again), then overslept this AM (again).
A couple of hours ago, I got a call from the HOA guy (replying to a message I had left him a couple of days ago). Before discussing the question I had called about, he once again brought up the subject of being paid for assisting the contractors when they were working on my plumbing. I explained that the contractor did not acknowledge having agreed to pay him, and that he should realize that if I paid him, I would not be reimbursed, and I do not think that is actually fair. He then went on about how he had spent so many hours, and he was not supposed to have to do that kind of work, et cetera. And repeatedly complained that I should have contacted him to discuss it. (Of course I had been deliberately procrastinating in the hope that he would give up, and figured he would contact me if he was going to insist.)
It was a weird conversation, because even when I said that I would pay him, it just didn't feel finished. As if perhaps he really wanted me to say something that I wasn't saying? If so: Too damn bad.
The upshot of all this is that I have this unpleasant knot of anxiety in my chest. And I want to go to bed early, and hope to get a good nights sleep, but I feel like I'm going to have nightmares instead.
I did at least say what I wanted to say. I mean, I had already decided that if he insisted on being paid, that it wasn't worth arguing -- but I wanted to be clear that I do not think he is justified in charging me for work that I did not authorize.
I hope that venting this here will allow me to unknot.
If anyone happens to read this tonight, think good sleepy thoughts for me, OK?
Last night I slept badly (again), then overslept this AM (again).
A couple of hours ago, I got a call from the HOA guy (replying to a message I had left him a couple of days ago). Before discussing the question I had called about, he once again brought up the subject of being paid for assisting the contractors when they were working on my plumbing. I explained that the contractor did not acknowledge having agreed to pay him, and that he should realize that if I paid him, I would not be reimbursed, and I do not think that is actually fair. He then went on about how he had spent so many hours, and he was not supposed to have to do that kind of work, et cetera. And repeatedly complained that I should have contacted him to discuss it. (Of course I had been deliberately procrastinating in the hope that he would give up, and figured he would contact me if he was going to insist.)
It was a weird conversation, because even when I said that I would pay him, it just didn't feel finished. As if perhaps he really wanted me to say something that I wasn't saying? If so: Too damn bad.
The upshot of all this is that I have this unpleasant knot of anxiety in my chest. And I want to go to bed early, and hope to get a good nights sleep, but I feel like I'm going to have nightmares instead.
I did at least say what I wanted to say. I mean, I had already decided that if he insisted on being paid, that it wasn't worth arguing -- but I wanted to be clear that I do not think he is justified in charging me for work that I did not authorize.
I hope that venting this here will allow me to unknot.
If anyone happens to read this tonight, think good sleepy thoughts for me, OK?