paradox of choice, redux
Dec. 10th, 2006 10:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jaeclecticAs I mentioned yesterday, I had signed up to go for a hike with T46 today. And I wasn't really feeling excited about the prospect, because of: 1) general tiredness, 2) extreme busyness, 3) lack of success thus far in meeting anyone interesting via T46, and 4) limited enthusiasm for driving in the rain to go hiking in the rain. But I figured I'd wait until the AM to decide.
So, I set my alarm, I got up, I gathered up all my hiking gear, and despite many thoughts of the other things that I could do with a stretch of 6 hours, I convinced myself it would be fun and I set out.
Only to realize, 20 minutes later, that I had left the directions at home. And the organizer's phone number, of course. And that I really did not remember enough of the directions to try to wing it.
Result: I got out of bed and spent an hour of my precious time driving to Albany and back for no purpose. And now I feel disappointed. And embarrassed. And frustrated. And mad at myself. And wondering if my brain is playing tricks on me. And sad in a formless kind of way.
But, I am home doing the laundry, and I should have enough time to get the vacuuming done today, and Ash-kitty is on my lap approving of the fact that I am home. So what the heck.
So, I set my alarm, I got up, I gathered up all my hiking gear, and despite many thoughts of the other things that I could do with a stretch of 6 hours, I convinced myself it would be fun and I set out.
Only to realize, 20 minutes later, that I had left the directions at home. And the organizer's phone number, of course. And that I really did not remember enough of the directions to try to wing it.
Result: I got out of bed and spent an hour of my precious time driving to Albany and back for no purpose. And now I feel disappointed. And embarrassed. And frustrated. And mad at myself. And wondering if my brain is playing tricks on me. And sad in a formless kind of way.
But, I am home doing the laundry, and I should have enough time to get the vacuuming done today, and Ash-kitty is on my lap approving of the fact that I am home. So what the heck.