astonishingly tired

[jaeclectic]

Too tired to do anything, keep skipping potential social events. Probably be sorry later in the week when there is nothing going on and I'm bored and lonely...

Can't quite figure out why I'm so tired, some combination of: jetlag (but it was only 3 timezones, should be over by now), recovering from week of mild continuous sleep deprivation (but again, after a couple of 12-14 hour nights, that should be pretty well in hand), recovering from heat stroke (but it should have been worse the last couple of days in Hawai'i if it was going to be this bad now), bodily energy diverted to healing wound (but hey, it's really just a scrape, we're not talking surgery here), and an utter lack of adrenaline push (lots of things I could be doing, but nothing, absolutely nothing, really needs to be done right away). Maybe by now I'm sleeping too much. Maybe I'm depressed and just not noticing? Maybe I'm sick and don't have any symptoms...

Anyway, I haven't strictly been vegetating, I have been exercising a little, I did manage unpacking and laundry, and picking up the wardrobe (not yet assembled, need another pair of hands for that). Job-hunting continues (went through BayCHI listings yesterday, need to apply for 3 or 4 things), and I am starting to plan the loft-warming. Everybody OK with June 12th?

Oh, and I started doing the weight-watchers online thing. I figured since I was not feeling enthusiastic about finding a meeting, maybe the online version was worth a try. 2 days and counting, we'll see how this works. I mean, I know the program works as long as I stick to it, it's the long-term motivation that eludes me.

Comments

Depression

[(Anonymous)]

Maybe you should try chemical therapy (the prescribed kind), or just plain old talk therapy. I don't know if it has to do with self-selection but if you review your entries in your Live Journal, in the vast majority of them you are either angry or depressed. Maybe that's when you tend to write, or what you tend to write about -- as opposed to writing about the good stuff -- but it does leave the impression that you are depressed.

Karen

Re: Depression

[jafitz.livejournal.com]

Note to self: post more happy thoughts. "LJ: it's not just for whinging anymore..."

Note to Karen: will email detailed reply. Thanks for concern.