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Oct. 15th, 2003 07:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jaeclecticAfter several weeks of feeling rather down, I am finding myself more cheerful overall, albeit still with some off moments.
The specific trigger of the sadness was clearly the gaping hole left in my local social network by the near-simultaneous departures of![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
eac to Michigan (not to mention jgcr to the forsaken lifeless region known only as The Peninsula) and of K&K to D.C. But for some reason, the mood rippled out from there, and I found myself dwelling on painful events from the past.
And of course there was the expectation of being out of work imminently. But I have achieved a successful state of denial on that front!
Plus I am starting to really look forward to my travels next month. There is this wonderful phenomenon that goes with travelling to somewhere interesting. I first noticed it when I went to Instanbul over Christmas in 1993 (if you're going to be alone on a major holiday, you might as well go somewhere where the shops are open). The way it works is that while you are planning the trip, you get to anticipate it, and when you tell people about it, they are all impressed if not convinced that you are psychotic. Then, you get to actually go on the trip -- which, even if every moment is not ecstatic, is an Adventure, after all! And then, the really great part: for the rest of your life, you get to brag about it! So, anyway, going to England and Firenza and possibly an undisclosed location in France isn't all that exotic, but it will do.
Anyway, we shall see how long the current upswing lasts. And whether I can stop crying whenever I sing along with the radio.
The specific trigger of the sadness was clearly the gaping hole left in my local social network by the near-simultaneous departures of
eac to Michigan (not to mention jgcr to the forsaken lifeless region known only as The Peninsula) and of K&K to D.C. But for some reason, the mood rippled out from there, and I found myself dwelling on painful events from the past. And of course there was the expectation of being out of work imminently. But I have achieved a successful state of denial on that front!
Plus I am starting to really look forward to my travels next month. There is this wonderful phenomenon that goes with travelling to somewhere interesting. I first noticed it when I went to Instanbul over Christmas in 1993 (if you're going to be alone on a major holiday, you might as well go somewhere where the shops are open). The way it works is that while you are planning the trip, you get to anticipate it, and when you tell people about it, they are all impressed if not convinced that you are psychotic. Then, you get to actually go on the trip -- which, even if every moment is not ecstatic, is an Adventure, after all! And then, the really great part: for the rest of your life, you get to brag about it! So, anyway, going to England and Firenza and possibly an undisclosed location in France isn't all that exotic, but it will do.
Anyway, we shall see how long the current upswing lasts. And whether I can stop crying whenever I sing along with the radio.
