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[jaeclectic]

Still moody, what to do... OK, maybe moody is an understatement. Intermittently weepy might be more like it.

Very frustrated with situation at work. Anxious about locus of financial / housing / work decisions that seem to keep getting put off. Still feeling the need for a more robust social network, not in the "there for me in a crisis" sense (I've got that), more the consistency & daily-ness of people to hang out with on a regular basis. Down on self about weight, feeling unattractive and blaming self. And feeling extremely foolish that I continue to drain emotional energy into a crush that sadly seems completely unreciprocated.

Short-term resolution: join a gym. Maybe start up weight watchers again, haven't quite worked up to that committment. Weight being only 1 of n issues, but maybe one where I can get some traction.

Second short-term resolution: start volunteering, maybe food bank, maybe SPCA. In addition to being quasi-social, it would just make me feel better about myself.

Not to mention keeping busy.

Comments

[eac.livejournal.com]

Have you been getting any casual exercise? (Like walks around town, I mean?)

Re: exercise

[jafitz.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, lots of walking. Not necessarily long walks, but 1/2 mile to the BART station, some other mile here or there, almost every day.

Not to mention 20-30 minutes on my stationary bike at least 4 days a week.

But with my metabolism, that is not weight loss, that is just holding back the tendency to keep ballooning...

What really got me thinking was the way I felt after doing the ski lesson in Tahoe. Because that was way more of a workout than I had been getting, and it felt pretty good (and my knees only hurt a little bit the next day)...

Re: exercise

[eac.livejournal.com]

I wasn't actually thinking about weight loss, I was thinking about whether you were leaving the house and enjoying the city. Sometimes that's a good anecdote to feeling down.

Re: exercise

[jafitz.livejournal.com]

Good point. More challenging in the rainy season, but there have actually been a lot of nice days, I do need to take advantage of them.

p.s. anecdote vs antidote, interesting kind of portmanteau concept ;)

Re: exercise

[eac.livejournal.com]

Hm. English is a problem for me.