retrospective
Jan. 1st, 2006 04:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jaeclecticSummarizing the past year seems to be the thing to do. It feels like the major theme was job flux. Or maybe generic dissatisfaction. Then again, the Peru trip was kind of noteworthy, and completely satisfactory. Perhaps I should just dwell on that.
A more time-line-ish synopsis:
- The year started with my (still new) job at PSFT having just been thrown into doubt & disarray by the ORCL takeover.
- After several dull months of waiting for ORCL to decide what to do with me, and just as they seemed to be on the verge of doing so, changed jobs again in May.
- Around the same time, started therapy, hoping to get out from under the shadows of old traumas.
- In June, did some apartment-hunting but decided not to move, despite the new cross-bay commute, and despite not being completely satisfied with the current place.
- Over the summer, hiked obsessively in preparation for:
- Traveled to Peru in September, and hiked the Inca Trail with a great group of new friends.
Nothing since then stands out as worthy of mention. Went back to work, spent a lot of time slowed down by sinus foo, gained weight, blah. Throughout the year, had wild mood swings about work and unrequited crushes of varying absurdity, but also lots of good times with friends, and of course my very sweet kitties. Truly, I don't want to be unduly sour. I have so many things to be grateful for: wonderful friends, financial security, health... Nevertheless, at this moment, I look back on the past year and wonder if any of my decisions were good. I'm not at all sure I like my job, I still don't know where I want to live, I can't tell if therapy is doing me any good.
I'm in a time of doubt and questioning. I hope the new year will usher in a time of answers and better choices and inspirational goals and feeling like I know what direction I want to go.
(Reading this over, a sardonic little voice in my head adds "Yeah, and true love. And a pony". Still and all, I think the part about direction and goals is key. More pondering required...)
A more time-line-ish synopsis:
- The year started with my (still new) job at PSFT having just been thrown into doubt & disarray by the ORCL takeover.
- After several dull months of waiting for ORCL to decide what to do with me, and just as they seemed to be on the verge of doing so, changed jobs again in May.
- Around the same time, started therapy, hoping to get out from under the shadows of old traumas.
- In June, did some apartment-hunting but decided not to move, despite the new cross-bay commute, and despite not being completely satisfied with the current place.
- Over the summer, hiked obsessively in preparation for:
- Traveled to Peru in September, and hiked the Inca Trail with a great group of new friends.
Nothing since then stands out as worthy of mention. Went back to work, spent a lot of time slowed down by sinus foo, gained weight, blah. Throughout the year, had wild mood swings about work and unrequited crushes of varying absurdity, but also lots of good times with friends, and of course my very sweet kitties. Truly, I don't want to be unduly sour. I have so many things to be grateful for: wonderful friends, financial security, health... Nevertheless, at this moment, I look back on the past year and wonder if any of my decisions were good. I'm not at all sure I like my job, I still don't know where I want to live, I can't tell if therapy is doing me any good.
I'm in a time of doubt and questioning. I hope the new year will usher in a time of answers and better choices and inspirational goals and feeling like I know what direction I want to go.
(Reading this over, a sardonic little voice in my head adds "Yeah, and true love. And a pony". Still and all, I think the part about direction and goals is key. More pondering required...)
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Date: 2006-01-02 08:25 pm (UTC)