so glad the week is over
May. 12th, 2006 07:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jaeclecticI got through the 3-day customer event at work on adrenaline; when it ended in the early afternoon I was ready to collapse. I should have just left early but I felt obligated to stay for a meeting this afternoon, which went really late, and then I needed to file some bugs after the meeting, so I ended up being there until 5:30 (not really so bad except that I'd been hoping to leave at 3:00).
Anyway, I'm home now, feeling tired and crabby. I can't really plan to do anything fun this weekend because I still feel like crap. I don't even have enough energy to want to talk to anyone. But nevertheless I feel sad and lonely and don't want to spend the whole weekend by myself.
Also feeling discouraged about not hearing from L (to whom I have not yet written again); up to this point I've been twitchy about waiting to hear from him, but essentially optimistic based on the tone of his communication to me. Now I'm wallowing in pessimism and self-deprecation, thinking he's probably just been stringing me along in case better options don't pan out. Rationally, of course, I know this has more to do with my state of exhaustion than any realistic appraisal of the situation.
Possibly everything will seem better in the AM.
Anyway, I'm home now, feeling tired and crabby. I can't really plan to do anything fun this weekend because I still feel like crap. I don't even have enough energy to want to talk to anyone. But nevertheless I feel sad and lonely and don't want to spend the whole weekend by myself.
Also feeling discouraged about not hearing from L (to whom I have not yet written again); up to this point I've been twitchy about waiting to hear from him, but essentially optimistic based on the tone of his communication to me. Now I'm wallowing in pessimism and self-deprecation, thinking he's probably just been stringing me along in case better options don't pan out. Rationally, of course, I know this has more to do with my state of exhaustion than any realistic appraisal of the situation.
Possibly everything will seem better in the AM.