I need to calm down

[jaeclectic]

I was on the verge of (if not actually) weeping all day, at the office. In fact, during my 1:1 with my manager, I told him I might need to change my vacation plans, and then broke into sobs. Big noisy gasping sobs. Poor man.

Anyway... I left the office a little early, came home and found nothing changed. Lena got up when she heard me come in. She's looks painfully thin, but she's eating, at least a little. She's unsteady in the extreme, but she can still get around.

A little while ago, she started crying, but when I spoke to her, she came and lay down near where I'm working and now seems peaceful.

The bottom line is, I have no way to know when the next crisis is going to come. It could be tonight, it could be tomorrow, or it could be weeks from now. And I can't stay in this state of near-hysteria for weeks, I really can't.

So I somehow need to calm down and be functional. I am just not sure how to get there from here.

Comments

[eac.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[gen9.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[vintagoth.livejournal.com]

oh this. I understand this so well after the last year or so with Snakefood. I am so sorry *hug*